7 days till FET....

I picked a bad day to update this as I am having a shitty day but I figured it's been a WHILE and it's definitely time for an update.
So far things have been pretty uneventful.
Lupron has made me a bitch.
The addition of the Vivelle patches has made me a basket case.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
This week especially I feel like my brain is about 100 steps behind everything and everyone else.
Crinone starts on Friday. This should be fun.
I'm truly looking forward to being done with these meds. I know I have a ways to go though.

Monday I heard from Dr. W. I had emailed her at the end of July and then again about 2 weeks ao and I had not heard back. I decided just to wait till Friday's appointment and ask them to have her call me. But she beat me to it.
In my last email to her I asked her about the possibility of transferring 2 embryos instead of 1. I wasn't sure what she would say and I know based on previous conversations she preferred transferring one. Since I'm under 35, been pregnant before and don't have egg quality issues 1 was the way to go with the fresh.
She basically told me that if I wanted to do 2 with the FET and I understood the risks etc. that she was okay with it.

So....We'll be transferring two on 9.2

I'm happy she'll be doing the transfer. She hasn't done any of my procedures since the IUI that got me pregnant in 2009. Since this was going to be our last cycle for a WHILE I wanted to make sure she did it.

I'm nervous. I had not really given this cycle much thought until Monday. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about the possibility of there being more than one. It's scary for so many reasons.
I'm always just hoping that it works.
It's been a long road.
I feel defeated. I feel like I'm sucking at absolutely everything else in my life.
I'm just hoping that this light at the end of the tunnel is coming soon.