I'm back, back again....

Well hello blog, so we meet again....

Let's see how quickly I can catch you up.

2013 was a piece of shit. There really isn't much to say about that. We did two more IUIs after the last post and both were a bust. The last one being the worst as I finally responded great to meds and it was for nothing because my progesterone dropped so damn fast after the IUI that there was no hope to be had.
I took that BFN REALLY hard. I wanted nothing to do with TTCing and I really wanted to just crawl in to a whole for a few months. That following month however I put on my big girl panties and took my little one to Disney World. I ultimately decided I needed  take an extended break. This was going to be J's last year home before starting school and my Dad was also really sick and we knew we were going to lose in in 2014 so I did not want to put anything more on my plate. 

I enjoyed the next 8 months with my boy and just before he started school on August 18th, 2014, my Dad passed away on August 7th. I was rough. On a positive note though, I ended up getting an amazing new job and that I started on August 22nd, 2014 and it really helped get me thru the next few months. 

We decided to hold off on the baby making for another while so I could focus on work and it really has been an amazing experience. I count my blessings daily.

This March we decided it was time to get back on the saddle. 

I called my RE's office and scheduled an appointment with her for April. I really do miss the days when she was the New Kid on the Block and didn't have many patients. Now she's a super hot commodity. To think, J was the first baby she helped someone conceive successfully at that practice. 

April was spent completing all the necessary testing and I began changing my lifestyle in terms of food etc.

All my tests came back good. I'm pretty much in the same boat as I have always been. My insulin levels were a little off thanks to my PCOS so Dr. W decided to put me on Metformin which I have been taking for about 3 weeks now. 

Originally the plan was to do one more IUI. I know, you must be asking wtf I would do another one. The truth is I don't know. Something inside me wanted to try it once more. I feel like things never really lined up well in 2013 and I wanted to give it one last shot before moving on to IVF. 

That was the plan. Was. 

DH's SA results came back and they weren't great. While his counts are still great, 100mil+, his motility and morph went down a lot. Most importantly his morph went down to 1%. 

Once we got those results, I started to rethink this plan. 

Dr. W also expressed in our consult after all the testing that she did not think that there was any point in doing yet another IUI. She thought that we had really exhausted that option and thought that we should consider moving on to the IVF route. However, she did tell me that she would do whatever I wanted and that if I really felt like I needed to do one more, she was on board.

So, after talking to my insurance and figuring out what would be covered we decided to set up an IVF consult with the nurse and the financial counselor and see what everything would entail. 

I asked DH what he thought and he said that if it's what I wanted to do he was on board.

ANNNNDDD here we are!

CD1 was on Thursday and I had my baseline ultrasound and blood work yesterday.

I was given my BCP rx which I started last night. More paperwork to read and all the remaining prescriptions I'll need for retrieval, transfer & thereafter.
I'll be on BCP till June 19th and I'm due back to the office for ultrasound and blood work on June 24th.

So that's it for now.

It's all very exciting, scary, overwhelming etc. 

It makes me miss my Mom. Not having her to call isn't easy.

But, I'm going to try my best to think and be positive. Continue working to try to be a better healthier version of me and PRAY. 

I'm also going to try to not neglect my blog. Promise.